Weightloss After Baby

Weight Watchers

2010-12-08T06:51:00.000-08:00

Today is Day 5 for me.

I really love the new program. I obviously cannot give an accurate review as far as comparing it to the way the program was previously, but I can tell you this much: kudos to WW for making all fruits and veggies ZERO points. The few times I tried the program, I would always forgo my fruits and veggies because I didn't want to use up my precious points on anything but carbs & protein - a no-no, I know. But now I feel as though I can have it all. Also, I love that the carb count is now taken into consideration. So double kudos to WW for having the chutzpah to make these changes and to keep up with the ever-evolving world of nutrition.

This week has been flawless, except for day 3, when I unexpectedly found myself at a fast food restaurant for dinner when I only had 5 points left for the day. And of course, instead of having a salad, I had a 17-point chicken sandwich (I obviously didn't know it was a whopping 17 points until after I had swallowed every last bite of it's delicious goodness). But I suppose this is also the beauty of WW - there are those additional 49 flex points I can use up during any given week. So despite my Day 3 slip up, I am still on plan and I still have 30 flex points left to use if I need them.

So cheers to a successful 4 days, and onwards to the remaining 3 days of this week!

Almost an Entire Year

2010-11-11T17:47:00.001-08:00

...Since my last post. I mean seriously? And I'm no thinner than I was then either. On the contrary, I'm sure I'm up like 10 pounds or so since that last post. I'll weigh myself tomorrow morning.

What a shame.

Where in God's name is my motivation? I don't have the slightest clue what is wrong with me or why I can't seem to get my shit together. I have so many reasons why I should get my shit together. So why I can't seem to translate that into actions?

I suppose I can sit here and beat myself up over the past, or I can pull myself up by the bootstraps and DO SOMETHING. I choose the latter goddamnit!

So here we go. Again.

Holidays, Holidays, Holidays!

2009-12-08T07:23:00.000-08:00

Where oh where does the time go??

I weighed in 2 weeks ago at WW, the Tuesday before Thanksgiving, and was down 10 lbs in one month. Not bad!

I am going in today but am not too optimistic. Thanksgiving started me on a pretty vicious downward spiral of overeating. Once I get just a little off track it is so hard for me to get back to where I was. I never used to be this way, I was always to determined and so goal oriented.

And trust me, there is a big goal: lose about 35 lbs so that I can get pregnant again before the end of the summer.

So why am I sabotaging myself? Maybe because people are telling me that I look thinner? In some weird way that gives my twisted head some green light to overeat instead of stay on track. What gives?

I am back to tracking points today. I am not going to lie though, I oftentimes wonder if WW is the right plan for me. It is very lenient and I am the type of Type-A who needs things to be very strict and defined. As I search for the right plan, I will continue with this one since it has suited me relatively well until now.

In other news, I started work again yesterday after being off for almost 2 weeks. I have a big event on December 21 and plan on starting another vacation on December 24th through January 4. This time I will be with my Nugget since she doesn't have school that week. I am looking forward to it! I just need to make sure we have a jammed packed agenda because she gets soooo bored at home.

Oh, and I have done absolutely no Christmas shopping. I need to get busy! At least we have our tree up, yay! Plus this year I put lights out on the balcony. I am feeling festive, what can I say?

Where oh where has the time gone?

2009-11-20T05:27:00.000-08:00

So much is going on right now. I need a new blog to discuss it all - this one is connected to my baby blog and everyone in my life can see it and I just want to be able to speak freely about certain things.

Has anyone ever used Word Press? Should I just buy a domain? I don't know what to do.

I am completely on hold with regards to the weight loss. I am finally feeling better - turns out I had Swine Flu. Can you even believe it? It was awful.

I plan on getting back to boot camp on Monday and back to Weight Watchers for my weigh in on Tuesday. It's been 2 weeks since my last weigh in. My excuse this week was another 8:30PM meeting. ugh.

I can't wait for next week and Thanksgiving, then I'm on vacation the following week. I already made a spa appointment for the first Monday of my vacation (Nov 30). That will be a great way to kick things off!

In the meantime I am dealing with so much right now, my stress levels are through the roof. This is bad bad bad for me on so many levels. It makes it so hard for me to stay on track.

But I will be on track. Starting today.

Tuesday 11/02: Weight Watchers Weigh In

2009-11-11T08:02:00.000-08:00

I LOST .02 POUNDS

This feels like ages ago, especially since I couldn't go weigh in yesterday. I have a Flu and feel awful.

I was able to work out last week Monday and Wednesday but because of the nausea I have been having (which I am guessing was flu related) I haven't worked out since. These workouts are not easy. I would be lying to you if I said I'm sad I haven't been able to go. I almost dread feeling better since that means I have no excuse!

I was over my points last week but have maintained my weight on my scale at home, despite not being able to weigh in officially yesterday.

So right now I am sick, working and taking care of my daughter. Not really the best time for an update but it had been so long that I really wanted to check in.

I will update properly in a bit.

Eyes On The Prize

2009-11-02T10:51:00.000-08:00

I'd like you to meet my pre-pregnancy, size 8 jeans.

They are hanging on my bedroom door as a constant reminder of my goals.

They were all I could think of as I suffered through my first boot camp class this morning. It was hard. I was sick. Literally. After the class, I headed home and sat in my car in front of my house wondering how I was going to make it up the stairs to my front door. Miraculously, somehow I managed. I've been feeling a bit nauseated throughout the day and am sincerely hoping Wednesday is better.

The class was an old school, P.E. style type class. Lots of running, jumping jacks, sprinting, resistance bands, etc. I was up at 5:40 and made it to the park by 6AM. I couldn't even believe there was 11 of us plus the teacher there. I was sure I'd be the only one considering how early it was.

I feel really accomplished today and it's only 2PM. I have been eating really well, sticking to my points. And today I started working out. This is a huge deal for me!

I weigh in tomorrow night. I am ready!

In The Zone

2009-10-30T14:54:00.000-07:00

I'm totally in the zone. It's been 10 days since I started the program and I finally feel like I am not craving bad foods. It took 10 days to detox so to speak. Unbelievable. I will never be able to fully grasp just how addicting certain foods can be.

I am going to buy The End of Overeating: Taking Control of the Insatiable American Appetite by former FDA commissioner David Kessler. He has the inside scoop as to why food has become as addicting as it has. I read the first few pages of his book on Amazon and am beyond intrigued.

On another note, I am signing up for a 12 Week Challenge Boot Camp here by my house. I start Monday. I AM SO NERVOUS. I don't know why lol The word boot camp alone gives me chills. It's a 4 day a week, one hour a day challenge. Apparently it's hardcore, BUT the leader of the program promised to work with me. He said I will be in the best shape of my life after 12 weeks. I believe it. I've never been physically fit.

And on yet another note, GO JACKIE! My girl over at fatfornow.com was chosen to be an EA SPORTS Active Challenger in the EA SPORTS Active for Life 6 Week Challenge! YAY JACKIE!!!

Tuesday 10/27: Weight Watchers Weigh In

2009-10-28T07:19:00.000-07:00

I LOST 8 POUNDS

If I didn't see it with my own eyes I probably wouldn't have believed it.

But it's true. And I am so happy! And I feel so motivated!

I don't really know what else to say. I am so shocked since I felt as though I had been eating so much. I didn't suffer at all. I mean, I had my moments - lets face it, no matter how you slice it, I couldn't eat to my heart's content. But I never felt deprived or starved or depressed or upset or resentful.

This is the start of something real.

I can feel it in my bones.

Almost 1 Week Down

2009-10-26T13:14:00.000-07:00

So I joined WW and have been eating better, but I still feel as though I am eating too much or maybe not eating the right foods. I am not eating nearly enough fruits and veggies.

I am the type of person who needs a lot more strictness when it comes to my eating. I remember on LA I couldn't even eat a banana in the beginning because it wasn't on the list of approved fruit lol But LA is not an option because there are no longer any open centers in the US. Their website is selling the bars and the juice and stuff but it seems a little shady to me.

So while on WW this past week, I stuck to my points (never going over) and finished eating all my flex points yesterday. I can't help feeling that I am eating too much. Like I have too many points to use. It seems like a weird complaint but I am never hungry and I just can't imagine losing any weight if I am never hungry. I mean, we suffer at least a little when we diet, no?

I have done zero exercise and am beginning to get the feeling that this post-pregnancy body fat of mine won't go away without a fight. I'm going to have to start working out to see any real progress. That's a first for me and it stresses me out because I really hate exercising. I don't get those endorphins everyone talks about. Regardless I need to start moving somehow or other.

I was a little irritable on Saturday and have been drinking diet soda to help with the food cravings.

Have you guys ever tried the FullBars? They are a bar you can buy at GNC that you eat with a tall glass of water 30 minutes before your lunch or dinner. Supposedly it keeps you full and prevents overeating. I was thinking about incorporating them into my diet. They are 3 points a pop but if they help in keeping me satisfied I am all for it.

I go in for my weigh in tomorrow and will see how well I did. When my mom saw me on Saturday she said she could tell I was losing weight. I hope she's right :)

My goals for this new week:
5 fruits/veggies every day

Tuesday 10/20: Weight Watchers

2009-10-22T10:01:00.000-07:00

I know I have been MIA and I will post something much more appropriate soon, but I just wanted to say that I am alive and that I decided to join Weight Watchers.

I am running to a parent/teacher conference for Sienna (UHHHHHH she's 15 months..?? lol) then to her 15 month appointment.

Updates to come!

ps. thank you jackie and sonya, you guys are the best :)

Spiraling

2009-10-07T18:48:00.000-07:00

I suck on so many levels. I just can't get my shit together. I have done NOTHING resembling any type of diet these last few days. I don't know what to say here. I just want to crawl into a corner and hide. If I could just get through 1 successful week, I know I can do this. But I can't even get through 1 successful day. I am so upset. I need to stop whining and start doing.

Tip #1

2009-10-04T10:12:00.000-07:00

Do not but excessive amounts of Halloween candy a month early

October 4, 2009

2009-10-04T08:33:00.000-07:00

Have you ever noiced that it is never the right time to start a diet? I mean really. Think about it. Friday, Saturday or Sunday is never any good. Monday is typically the start day, but what happens when there's the obligatory company lunch or birthday dinner? There's always Tuesday, but what if you wake up excessively hungry? Or with a craving for an egg mcmuffin, ok a a few egg mcmuffins? You've already screwed the day up with your morning binge so why try for a Tuesday start? Wednesday becomes a replay of the day before and by the time Thursday gets here you surrender to the fact that the weekend is approaching - so may as well wait till Monday.
It's such a vicious cycle. The worst part is that all the while, I hate the way I'm looking in my post-pregnancy clothes. I hate the fact that I can't fit into anything in my closet that is pre-pregnancy (was I really a size 4? really?). But ultimately, I hate that I can't try for another baby right now if I wanted to. We want another baby sooner rather than later but there is no way on earth I want get pregnant as overweight as I am right now. I do not need to be dealing with gestational diabetes or an increased risk to my unborn child. In addition, I have Pulmonary Stenosis and am high risk to begin with...reason number 45,286 I need to drop lbs asap. How many, you ask? Well, I don't feel like divulging the number right now or even posting how much I weigh. Eventually I will, but for now, all you need to know is that I am determined. On a mission.
Today is October 4th, 2009. I plan to be at my goal weight of 155lbs by July 4th, 2010. My daughter's second birthday.
How? Good question. I haven't really thought about it too much other than a possible starvation diet (half joking). Clearly that will not work, trust me, I've been around the block enough to know for a fact it will not work. So I am left with either counting calories or counting points...and I am leaning towards points since my mother is a Weight Watchers instructor. I know, I know. You don't have to say it or even think it. It's my fault entirely I have waited this long to jump back on the wagon despite the fact that I have the help I need just a phone call away. Few are as lucky, trust me, I know it.
I have the tools I need so it's just a matter of following through and maybe even attending the meetings from time to time.
I had breakfast this morning and logged what I ate. For me, keeping a food journal is truly half the battle. Have you ever tried it? It works wonders! Try it and be true to yourself. Don't omit anything at all. No matter how small the food morsel is that you put in your mouth, write it down. I have come to realize that the grazing throughout the day is what kills me. A little here, a little there, a small bite here, a lick of the spoon - it adds up and before you know it you've eaten an additional 600 or so calories.
As for working out, I know I have to do it. But I need to get in control of my eating first. As soon as I have a successful month under my belt, I want to join a bootcamp here by my house. Honestly I can't even think about it right now. It overwhelms me.
One step at a time.

A New Day

2009-10-03T20:47:00.000-07:00

I lost a ton of weight, got pregnant, gained most of it back, gave birth, gained even more weight.

Time to stop the insanity once and for all!